|I'M NOT THE ONE WHO'S MISSING OUT!
||[Jan. 9th, 2005|02:32 pm]
|||||Keysha Cole-I CHANGED MY MIND||]|
hi everyone! dam its been a while that i've written in my journal. sorry i haven't updated it. anywas i have no idea where to start with my life. well as u hopefully know i started seeing this guy ryan the night before last homecoming. we kissed that night. well we went through this like phase like we would hardly see eachother but when we did we would kiss. well idk. well recently me i had my 15 b-day. my b-day was on the 17th. well that night ryan came over unexpectedly. i had a great night just hanging out really close with him. then he left. the next day was my party. i had an awesome time. the best day ever actually. my parents threw me a party and ryan came over again with my cuzs. during the party me and ryan had kissed in my room really quickly. i was happy i at least got a kiss that day, but then more happened. my nina marie with is the best (she's still young, like 21) had said that she was gonna take us (meaning my cuz richie, eric, ryan, me, and whoever else) to the movies and that she had to go stock up her trunk cause she was empty. i was like yes! i was finaaly gonna get drunk for the first time. well i had fun just hanging with my friends until they all had to leave. then it was my nina marie, tina, nessa, nina, richie, ryan, and me that went to the movies. it was pretty kool. we held hands throughout the movie. then afterwards we were always together. i had to take care of me when i was drunk. we stayed out only until like 2am. long enough. i had so much fun. i never really got to see him over winter vacation. on new years eve. i was kinda sad cause he was in sd when i was stuck here. well he called me like at 12:30am and i was so happy he called. for the longest time he had kept sayin he had to ask me somethin and finally he said he was gonna ask me right there and then. at 12:45am on 1-1-05 he asked me to be his girlfriend. i was so happy. monday at school it was kinda wierd but koo. tuesday was a lil better. we got to hang a lil more. wednesday i went to lunch with him. it was awesome. i was happy. thursday was koo too. we hang out during breaks. friday was funny. i was late waking up and i had like 20min to take a shower and get ready. i take a 15min shower and take the other quick 5 min getting ready. then i went to my cuz richies house cause he's suppose to take me to skool. i still finished getting ready. and then all of sudden here comes ryan. i didn't even know that he was goin with us. we hardly talked. later that i ate lunch with him and aaron and it was funny. when we were walkin out my friend ricardo had said "u don't even say hi to me theresa?" i just said a quick hi and walked out. when i was walkin out i heard ryan saying "she dosen't have to say to you!" i was like oh shit. and then i just walked out of there. i looked back and ryan was still arguing with him. i called him and he finally came while sayin he's gonna get his ass jumped. and then he put his arm around me like trying to tease ricardo but i didn't dare look back. i was shocked and confused to do anything. later that day i was gonna go hang with ryan, my cuz, and aaron but i wasen't able to go. which sucked. while the next day which was saturday (yesterday) it was homcoming and i couldn't go. i knew he was gonna dance with other girls and i didn't care. my best friends called me to say that it looked like he was humping some other girls and i was like watever i don't care. then later ryan's best friend aaron called me and said that ryan didn't want to hurt me and he didn't want to be with me anymore and just asked if i was okay. i just said yea. idk. i felt so stupid afterwards cause i was cryin cause i wanted to go to the dance so bad! and i really wanted to go dance with ryan and now he did that to me. fuck. i'm an idiot! last night was fun tho. my cuz joel spent the night and we were just hanging out getting hiper as hell. it was awesome. i also talked to ryan last night and i just told him he was a basterd and clicked on his ass. today he called me while i was with my mom in the car and he just said that he was sorry and that he asked if we were still friends and i was like yea i think so. and he got all confused with that and all i said was i got to go. watever. bye. he said he stupid excuses later to me and the were "I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO HURT YOU" and "I KNEW I COULDN'T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND FOR LONG" everything he tells me is like now bullshit. i hate it. watever as me and my cuz joel say "HE'S MISSING OUT, I'M NOT!"
oh! i almost forgot! everybody must know that MANDO IS SEXY! jk!